‘ cHriS ‘’s Blog

Yes I am indeed hot… For months I’ve been living in the underworld which i managed to turn into my own little paradise. This place is what others would consider a “shithole,” but indeed I am loving the smell of it… This is the smell of things that are zero-superficial, of things that purely make me HAPPY and ALIVE. There is abso-fucking-lutely nothing here; only a few tambays, the instruments we share, cigarettes, and bottles of gin every night. Living in exile deprives me of everything that can be considered a distraction. The only connection I have to the city is my beloved BROADBAND connection and a few visits from friends, and occasional messages from them saying how much they miss me, and how much they wanna see me… I know I have NOTHING and I am NOTHING (to the standards of the people who embrace money as if it were the only important thing in the world) but from this NOTHINGNESS every GREAT thing can be MADE POSSIBLE. I am striving to EAT the very dust that I, along with others are stepping on every single day, because i know someday we will be chewing on the clouds from the great heavens, and when that day comes, I know exactly where to look back to. SO YES, I think I AM HOT, the flames of this place are burning my skin everyday, reminding me of what my purpose is. And yet as I close my eyes, this place is afterall, heaven…

More than anything else, the passion that BURNS inside of me and my bandmates are HOTTER… We’ve shared something so true that I’m willing to starve long enough for it. I am willing to accept people spitting on my face with their putrid hate and criticism of the way I want to live my life. We are hellbent on making them kneel before us someday.